August 15, 2004
In an interesting synchronicity of events with my clients, many seem to be 'coming out' and coming for readings to discuss their experiences. Our grid game must be focusing on this issue as it cycles through the various dramas it creates...
We move to a subroutine in the gray grid game, married people who left their marriage for same-sex partners. Governor McGreevey is not alone.
As far as my recent gay clients go:
Now for the 'F' words ... Fear, family, friends, failures, etc.
All fear family repercussions. Most do not want to hurt anyone they love.
Many hope to remain friendly with their former spouses.
All left their spouse after finding a soul mate of the same sex and feeling a connection they had never experienced before. People generally will not leave until the new partner is in place and they feel secure.
All had stopped having sex with their spouses long before they met their gay lover. They lived with their spouse as brother and sister, as many older couples do.
It is easier to say you are gay when you have a gay sibling, as we are talking about genetics.
Lest you forget, reality is about codes, all is created in code, mathematics, sacred geometry, our program, your personal program, your coded DNA. You change lifestyles as your DNA codes alter.
All is encoded for those who are programmed as 'code breakers', but that is another column as it takes us to the bible codes and more.
Let's stay gay today...
Many married women, who no longer have sex with their husbands, believe these men are gay having lovers outside the home. They sometimes find evidence of this in their husband's email and the websites their husband visits. Okay... they snoop... These women sometimes perpetuate the facade of a functioning marriage for money, family, and/or status. Most go out and find lovers of their own.
Many married man have gay affairs, having married in the first place as that was what was expected of them by family and society, or they did not want to deal with gay issues. Some remain married as they are bisexual, but one must watch out for STD's.
Gay men often explore lovers of different races and ethnic backgrounds.
Once one leaves a marriage for a same sex partner, the social dramas begin... Will the new partner and lifestyle be acceptable?
Sooner or later they reach a point when none of that matters. They hope that those who love and respect them will understand, and if they don't, so be it.
The family and friends who love them, often come to a place of greater understanding when they see them happy with their new lifestyle and partner, over a period of time.
Enter the age-old duality of our program....
What happens when the person they left their marriage for, the gay lover, decides to move on. They are drama queens!
As in a straight relationship, one must move 'out of the heart' and see their lover's issues before planning 'happily-ever-afters'. Love leads souls blindly into fantasy and eventually drama and despair for many. Be sure the gay partner is not in your life just to 'bring you out', and is emotionally crippled.
These people are left wondering why the partner who opened the door to love and their true nature, who shared much with them, and also said that wanted things to last forever, has changed, left them for another. People leave when someone new comes along.
If you don't chose to recognize and deal with the emotional issues of your new partner, you will one day have to deal with them, and you can be destroyed. You have to get to know a person, gay or straight. This takes time and observing with 'eyes wide open'.
As with the straight world, people are crushed having thought they were with the perfect partner, that they had found The One, that it was meant to last forever, the breakup sending them on a tailspin, into therapy and perhaps putting them on anti-depressants.
In time, the wounds heal and most fall in love again, perhaps to repeat the same pattern, or hopefully with greater passion and a more mature and functional relationship than the person who brought them out.
We are a challenged species struggling to make sense of events that we attract.
You attract partners by grid points. You have an emotional grid matrix around your body that attaches to that of another who wishes to experience the same things you do. Connect the dots and play the emotional games... The more you play, the more you understand the lessons.
You can find happiness in love, after you see what the issues are and how well you can work together in a relationship. We are not all equipped to be in a long-term relationship, but we seek the 'high' of falling in love and the sexual bliss that goes with it.
It is also interesting to note that people who hide their gay life from family, friends and co-workers, think no one knows the truth. Grow up! That is so not true! People know. It's like having an office affair and you think no one in the office knows! People who spend lots of time together become telepathic and just know.... Then again it is best to not mix business and pleasure, but that's another column.
If a gay person thinks that by telling the family they are just living with a same sex 'friend', they won't figure it out ... they are so wrong!
People are coming out more and more, the NJ Governor McGreevey incident one of many, this one a soap opera filled with drama, extortion, rejection and the whole gamut of negative emotions. We haven't heard the last of this scandal as both parties lied.
Do you seek someone to love, understand you, and connect with you on a soul level?
Married or not, the body, mind, and/or soul, strays as your grid matrix changes, and attract by magnetism, as we are electromagnetic energies, polarity, new experiences. Such has been the journey of sexually-driven humanity.
A straight friend once told me, "All people supposedly have gay tendencies." I could not agree as I have never experienced such stirrings. "That is just a myth," she continued. "To know if you are gay, image yourself passionately kissing someone of the same sex. A kiss tells it all. It is the intimacy factor." She and I did agreed, we could never be gay. Yet we are both involved with metaphysics enjoying the many gay and amazing friends who enter out lives. It is interesting how so many gay come into these realms of higher enlightenment, often becoming healers and energy workers.
The evolution of consciousness teaches us to be true to our soul purpose, to come into realization of who we are on all levels, that our physical bodies must be honored, and that one of our greatest fulfillments comes when the 'heart' connects and the body responds.
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